Sunday, December 31, 2006

it's the time of the year again! where everyone goes for countdowns and i'm at home rotting away. not that i don't wanna go out alright. it's that i chose not to, for the fear of my OC calling my house anytime. last year was really pathetic due to my personal problems if i remember correctly. this year? too many things to do and places to go but just can't go!!! hais.

this year is totally different from others. i've friends asking me out to party, to shoot fireworks, to tag along for a dog shoot and stuffs. but i'm stuck at home.... can you actually understand my feelings?! =\ oh well gotta save some money as well. i'm still dehydrated and not feeling well, not being able to think fast or focus is a bad bad thing for me.

and this year is the year where i kickstart my photography passion. the first time i spend thousand plus for my FIRST camera of my life. it's the year where i enter 'National Slavery' if there's sucha term for it. it's the year where my grandmother passed away... too many things happening and it's all coming to an end within 3 hours?


hello! i'm back from watching tv and stuffs. so actually finance planning for january's pay is like...

my bag? or save up for AKG 701? or a flash? but noooooooooooooooooooo....

"then now become tripod... then cable release... then eyecup... ipod wireless remote... neckstrap... mouse bungee..."






from above - eyecup = S$17
- 3rd party canon shutter release = S$20
- iJet for iPod with Dock Connector RF Remote = US$35
- OP TECH USA PRO & PRO LOOP STRAP = S$28

decisions decisions and more decisions! i hate making decisions... but once i've made up my mind. it's really hard to deter me from me. yeah most ppls should know i do things the way i want it once i've decided =D

after listing prices, anyone wanna get me something for my bday? =x hahaha just kidding! i'm still deciding whether i should save up for my flash or akg 701 first....

MORE DECISIONS!

jeraine, all the best in your 'trip' to aussie! *hugs*

brownie typed this at 8:24 PM

Saturday, December 30, 2006

first and foremost. i'm getting sick... and i'm those kinda ppls who can actually take it but just wouldn't want to. after all, it's always a choice right? my body heat going up due to lack of proper hydration and probably my aircon as well. lack of proper rest sometimes and 'heaty' food i suppose. oh well, i'm on MC again and my officer commander ain't very happy bout it cause it's live firing tml and he thinks i'm trying to run? well i'm not. i don't see a need for my presence tml.

and my dear dear camera ain't with me for almost a week now. currently still with nick after renting it out to andy and nick went to collect for me. yups so he's using my body as main body for a commercial shoot as usual. went around selling ppls mx400s and accompanying kieth to look for his earphone and he did mention that my setup was drooling quality =P.

errr.... girls out there. don't you realise the way you sit in public? yeah i've been taking buses for a very long time now and i just realised something. you know those seats in single deck buses where it faces the rest in the opposite direction? yeah those kind which is like one step higher... if a girl wearing a short skirt sits there and doesn't cross their legs, it's a free peep show for everyone from practically every angle especially those sitting in front of her...

so please choose some proper seats or have the the decency to cover up yourself with dignity. i saw it the day before and was like... sucha turn off in a way. hais i'm getting drowsy now sillies. i guess i'm off to bed rather early today. and i was freaking hell pissed off yesterday night. my brother screwed my whole comp's directories and icons were lost. i don't even understand how he did that in the first place. damn!

www.theistore.com

another very important thing... i wanna get a wireless remote for my ipod! it's comes with line out dock as well so can still put to my dock too. damn damn! now switching songs is sucha hussle putting my whole setup in my pocket so i'll just usually hold it in my hand haha. but i would need a fm receiver if possible too! and a mouse bungee!!! big nose told me simlim does sell them... hahaha now i know! and bday is coming... payday coming!!! whoppieeeee. =D

brownie typed this at 9:36 PM

Monday, December 25, 2006

yeah man hell it's christman time once again! the season where everyone is waiting for but i'm just at home blogging away and enjoying a good show on hbo. the season to be jolly? what's jolly anyway. =.-!


i'd a rather enjoyable relaxing week with nothing much to do except shooting animals, natalie's bday bbq and more animals actually. ^^ and finally getting my baby amp yesterday at the price of S$180+/- with some free gifts.

yeah the bday was pretty good with some pretty babes. ^^ a good conversation and well, she'd would a pretty good friend. that's all for now. the food was pretty decent except for the rain and some other unforseened factors which i would not name. some weird guys and some people i wouldn't like to meet. if not, it's a great bbq! thanks for the party nattie. =)


sorry i guess i'm just lazy to do proper works for my jobs or whatever. leaving too much empty space at the top. who cares! it's only important to the ones in it hahahaha. some cat shots and visiting the cattery is always fun! playing with huge huge dogs do make a difference to my mood. i'm not very healthy right now. getting even worse cos i didn't really take much of my medicine properly.

heres another candid shot of nick being humped by rudolph! HAHAHA! he tried to hump me also. it's like dancing with a dog =P pretty fun since it was raining and we had to stay indoors at mutts and mittens. nonetheless, it was enjoyable and learning experience with nic. i'm getting too addicted with the works of my amp man! gees.

anyway just an hr or so ago, received a few smses from some of my friends. rather... huiwen and hidayah. two of them actually went missing in my life once again. =.=! i've no idea what either of them is up to right now. but it's rather sweet that huiwen still has my number. lol. time really flies pass and she's like 17 going 18 soon. tsk tsk. and of course... not forgetting wenling dear! how can my wenling be so ever sweet =P.

oh oh! a evening to remember with karen i suppose. been sucha long time since i met up with her... really really long. since she was sec 2 or sec 1? she used to be the vice-cap of dunman sec netball team. haha and yeah she's very crazy and fun-loving but smart smart at the same time. pretty girl she has gone up to be. she suddenly sms-ed me after i bought my amp yesterday afternoon and i went down to bugis to meet her to bring her to the o2 shop for some battery problem with her phone.

yups. a lil' xmas shopping for her guy friend at bugis street which was like madness cos i don't really like bugis street now though it's like renovated and much cooler. but it's still drowning with clothes that i wouldn't wear at all. either too artistic or too bengish -.- yeah and went along to seiyu to do more shopping...

a lil more walking along parco area and had a picture together with her and the diamond xmas tree in the background. i seriously have no idea why EVERYONE wants a picture of that tree. i would gladly appreciate a naturla AUTHENTIC real life christmas tree rather than expensive ones. you know what i mean don't you? a big hug from her before i took a train and that was heart warming. it has been so long since i'd a real nice hug from someone. shall post our picture here soon =)

brownie typed this at 1:07 AM

Monday, December 18, 2006

once again, my birthday is fast approaching and i'm going to be like 1 yr older but next yr would be special. i would be reaching "adulthood" when i'm still feeling rather young at heart =D but not in the head. haha.

oh well. it would be on a tuesday and in camp so yeah nothing much to do. but that's payday and i think i would save up for more stuffs to buy...

brian dream wishlist...

AKG K701 - S$701 with a desktop amplifier.


Canon Speedlite 580EX E-TTL - S$640-700



Tamrac Adventure 5549 - S$200

X-tra Amplifier - S$145 ( might get it myself this week )


Canon ER 17-40mm f/4L USM - S$1,000


And FINALLY... presenting...

Canon EF 70-200mm f/2.8L IS USM - S$2,800/+




then again... it's always dream to have these babies one day. won't be that distance i suppose. but mainly these are what i need and what i want badly! thanks everyone for hearing me out and me whining as usual. i love ya babes!

seriously, i wouldn't mind anything if the thought counts. just look and brownie and yellowie =D and for that gotta thank ling so much <3

brownie typed this at 9:33 PM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

how random could i be, i wonder?

i believe alot of my close friends do know that i love kitties alot. being a cat person more than a dog person. i did cover an cockers speniel event ytd at some ulu ulu organic farm around lim chu kang and was paid a reasonable amount by my friend. i'm not even sure why he paid me lol.

well, i met someone who was running for SAF in salsa *i hope i got the spelling right*, it's a unit where top athletes train for SAF? i suppose so. he's a runner there and 100m was like 11secs and world record timing is like 9+. haha well, i finally got my ipod 20gb but seriously not enough space for me... even for now?! i have not even put everything inside and its already full -.- gees but well i'm lovin' it and getting an amplifier this week to boost the audios and EQs.

oh yeah, i realised that i do alot of things in my life in order... everytime i dry myself, how i drink, how i hold my fork and spoon, how i shit... ya know...

i've been busy the past week. going outfield on wednesday and staying there till thursday afternoon and sitting under a training shed and waiting for nothing? i was there waiting for like 30hrs and feeding the mosqitoes. including slping on concrete floor and having mosqitoes buzzing over my ears when i slp. well thursday evening had a route march and was pretty fun i must say. i don't know how long was that but i love adventure trekking =D

my family is still having serious financial woes and i'm still spending... i really wonder why? but i'm prepared to sell whatever i need to sell to help them with whatever possible. many here reading my blog take alot of stuffs for granted... they can ask me what i wanna do after NS?

my answer would straightly be... i don't have the money to further my studies. that's all and nothing more to be said. work and study? possible i can say.

sex is something everyone is just doing? what for? does status really matter? well, for the benefit for everyone here. everything i do and my room has things which means alot to me. ppls always tell me i'm nice bla bla. will find a very good gf next time. for how many yrs now? -.- i'm sick and tired.

anyway i just made a prank call to some guy whom darling rach told me bout. that guy actually made prank calls to her sister and just "fuck you" and hang up. so i just called him and let him listen to some power ranger song. yes i'm serious! LOL.

my bday is like coming in 1 month and i would be turning 21. i'm deciding whether i should hold a bbq and invite some friends over anot -.- they all seem super busy for me. well, shall plan again! time for gaming... while others are having live firing and booking in hahahaha.

brownie typed this at 7:42 PM

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

as i'm typing this, i'm actually talking to a friend who's watching pornographic videos online and the thing is that she's fifteen. nothing much surprising. i'm just talking to a another female friend who wants to get married like now? and be a young mum and raise a family. she hates the 17-18age where she has to go through her teenage years.


no, she doesn't look her age at all and yeah, she's quite hot. sex with her bf is frequent and they're madly in love. planning is one thing. getting ready for the future is another. how many are? seriously i'm ready for nothing, i'm not financially stable nor my family. my mum wants to borrow $600 from me and i don't even have it.


people have been pestering me to update my blog... *hints* the one that flooded my tagboard! humphfs. oh well, i've been rather busy or lazy to update. i don't see the need to since i'm in the forest most of the time. or behind my camp area which is our "playground" area for tanks and infantry.


life in camp isn't that bad lar. it's just that it can be tiring but fun at the same time. i just got my pay 3 days back and it's 520. yups, more than enough for me to survive this month and even extra to buy my amp and camera bag if nessasary. i'd most probably getting my amplifer first which costs like $145.


i got this book called "pink box : inside japan's sex clubs". it's about a female photographer living in japan and it's pictures... hahahaha i don't know how to explain... pictures speaks. so here we go.


http://www.pinkboxjapan.com/


i've the hard copy of this book and it cost me 47 bucks. it's not that wonderful after all to justify the price. and i'm trying to sell this off and make a quick buck if possible. selling some stuffs to fund my other audio stuffs.


sometime i really wonder how often do girls think of sex? sex is always overated and never really done well in singapore. and what? i've been shooting street shoots and car rally the past week. and pictures turned out just okay. nothing that great. some of the pictures can be viewed in my photobucket. yeah i'm cheap =P


brian's photos!


well, shopping at beach road and walking around with my cam and a 70-200 f4 mounted on it and walking around was fun.... nyyyy... hahahaha. okok i guess shooting at ecp is pretty tiring and not that easy. a flash is definately needed and money even more. so i'm going to end this entry short and sweet. to any one out there...



CAN SOMEONE PLEASE BUY ME?!?! a girl is always prefered.

brownie typed this at 1:42 AM

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

it's been really havoc in camp and outside. though having a long break of 6 days really helped me rearranged and relax a lil', performing and shooting well at events still mean alot to me. given such great lens for me to play around with, yet i wasn't able to produce anything that very good or up to my expectation.

i've no idea what exactly i'm looking for... shooting fireworks which was crappy on friday night but having alot of fun on the same night shooting x'mas lightings at orchard. hahahaha. waking up at 130pm on sat and heading down to jaben to meet mike and nick for the usual. testing headphones at that time really made me wanna give up my photography for the time being due to time constrain.

sunday was just pure fun! making alot of good car shots but not the race queen shootings. there's alot of things i missed out but i believed i would improved further from time to time. it's alot better than those that were there. including seeing two accidents right in front of me. hahahaha. it was really exciting bla bla.

something wrong with me? maybe my life is in a mess right now. overspending on a 2ndhand mp3 player, a radio, food, dry cabi and cds? all which i shouldn't buy this month. didn't have enough money to get some other stuff as well. oh well. planning worked out pretty good. pay day coming and would be able to get my book from nick soon =D.

ordered a bayerdynamic polo tee as well! and i'm selling my crumpler puppet for another bag. hmmm. i've not much time to process my photos as well as i'm changing my primary player to itunes and ripping off alot of my cds to 320kbps for better sound quality. haha.

i'm feeling lost again. my room was in a big mess but just slightly packed it a few minutes ago. hmmm went with hidayah to have dinner at bugis and a drink at starbucks and walked to cityhall haha. it's never boring with ya babe =) and thanks for the over-concern. it's not that i don't wish to tell you what's wrong but i really don't know whats wrong as well.

it's always hard deciding and i actually had a long bus ride home sleeping on bus no.65 from habour front lol. my family relations aint that good either but i'm trying to support myself as much as i can. there's always alot of things on my mind but i can't figure out how to portray this picture in my head out.

and tml is my last day of my leave... for this week! hahahaha next week another 4 days. yeahhh shall plan it soon. editing alot of my race queen shoot bla bla.

and xmas is coming! birthday is coming! cny is coming too!

dreaming of my 70-200 IS ipod video AKG701 and amp. =P

brownie typed this at 2:26 AM