Wednesday, July 26, 2006

sorry to say that sadly, being nice ain't the very real me at all. yes i'm very polite with strangers because i always assume they are flawless as i do not know them at all. i'll always say 'thank you' to whomever that deserves it. even the crew on the penguin ship that we take weekly back to camp.

being nice ain't that very good. being attitude makes ppls hate you. well i've been through both phrases already and being nice is never good. you'll just end up on being the loser side. and oh yeah before anyone says...

i'm not being pessimistic about this whole incident.

there's always nice ppls in the world and we're all just waiting for them to lose their cool at one point of their life. and yes, i've seen a increase in that among my friends recently. including angeline and xiaofen. xiaofen one is pretty a gradual buildup within her family but angeline, in my opionion, has the most fucked up boyfriend i've ever seen in my life.

she's being a lovely girl as she is, from what i know so far. being down most of the time pondering so many unanswered mysteries. i'll always place most ppls in front of me because i know my life ain't that bad after all. and helping others somehow make me happier and have something to look foward to. and thus not thinking about my own problem.

i usually solve my problems pretty quick but there's alot of things that are not within my control at all. but i always have that sensitive moody pms side of me. yes i am very aware of what my actions are. sometimes it's just that it's very hard for me to put my point across to so many ppls.

oh yeah. i've a crazy bitch ex gf. that's all i'm going to say. i'm not those bastard bf that goes around spreading around how they pumped their gf inside out and what she sounded like in estacy. it was definately not an easy time for me but i've learnt quite alot from it.

and relationships? oh yea i'm not suppose to comment since i'm just twenty and ppls doubt my knowledge and experience. great man. i'm not being sacarstic bout this but i've only been in two 'official' relationships. i would consider my others, relationships?

i doubt i can comment on that as well but yes i do love them at one point of time of the relationship. and i know ryjm would be reading this someday? hahaha.

jeraine, i really doubt you understand whats going through my head now but i felt too insecure and you being able to find mark. or whatever way works for you. feelings fade i know. you having another one? good for you then. i really don't know what to say anymore. move on brian =)

brownie typed this at 7:29 PM