Saturday, July 22, 2006

ever heard of something like that? yeah it's that serious where someone gets to downgrade to PES CL9L. i've no idea what that actually stands for but my friend here is excused from ippt and outfield and he's posted to a unit i dreamt of going into. that's all =D.

and for all those concerned, my sore eyes is still pretty serious i suppose. 2 weeks being red might be normal but it's no joke when i'm currently in tekong serving my bmt. another week of mc and i might be out of course =(.

and my grandmother is in critical condition somehow. she's in a private hospital home of some sort and is placed in the chronic terminally ill section, as in those who are just waiting for death if you wanna put it in a ugly way. it's called the peace ward where they try to ease the suffering and such. and if my grandmother really passes away within these 2 months, i might really be placed out of course. gees. my grandmother can't even recognise my older brother who has been living with her since he was 2yrs old. that's age.

and financial problem is another thing. how many of my friends always assume i'm rich because i have this and that. expensive headphones, keyboards, mouses and spend on expensive stuffs. that's only the brighter side they see of me. nothing personal but i don't actually spend that much on other stuffs. i do admit i've a certain desire for high tech toys one way or another. and my bike isn't gonna come cheap as well. my dslr system is one of my top piorities.

the word, divorce, did came out of my mother's mouth earlier on and imagine how serious that could be. be separated for me won't be much of an issue. but i doubt my mother would be able to handle the problem. she's those kinda where she worrys more about the problem rather than finding a solution. i'm exactly the opposite. i find solutions rather than think about the problem.

this is the state that one thing is driving us into.

money.

simple as that. television always show that the rich always have divorce because of money but they don't really show the part where ppls end up divorcing because of money issues as well.

oh yeah. how many of you, readers, actually remain in close contact with friends from primary school? few. very few. hahahaha. i have primary school friends who are married and with kids now. and alot of my close friends might add on that if they're pregnant somehow, they will keep the kid. how many are really gonna make that decision when it actually happens?

and i've been seen as a player or whatever. i don't take it that way. things happen here and there. it's not entirely my fault whatsoever. i do admit that what happened between me and ryjm was rather a big mistake in the past, somehow. for the rest? i've no idea anyhow. one day, we can be as close as we could be. in the next week, we might become total strangers.

but yet, i've some very close friends whom are usually there for me when i need them the most. casey wenling wanling angel rach. and some of the uncles around whom i'm in contact with. haha. i really need a break very soon. or i might just break. =)

brownie typed this at 2:21 PM