Wednesday, January 04, 2006

always be the second best. and i'm refering to the best in the world where no one else is better than you. imagine a hairstylist being the best at where he does, but he couldn't cut his own hair. a lil' sad right?

oh yeah as i was chatting yesterday with ryjm, she did say quite alot of ppls don't like me? yups i guess that's true but how many of them actually know me in person and talk to me in person before they make those kinda remarks? once a noob = a noob . and if you think you're so popular within the guys or girls for this matter, just remember there will be a group of ppls hating you for being popular.

no matter how "saintly" you can be. someone will forever be there to make some crude negative comments about you or your organisation. the NKF saga is sucha example. and another thing, how many ppls are actually not backstabbing u? lol if you think i'm being paranoid over this matter. just take note when one of your friend says some bad stuff about another of your friend. and remember, if he can do that to that guy, he can do the same to you =)

it's a matter of how good you are in influencing ppls and making them follow you kinda thing. that's how gangs are? the boss is always the "fiercest" one, the one to follow, the one to "protect" you. i accept the facts and comments when ppls say i'm "xia-lan" in irc or in online games but i do show a certain amount of professionalism when i'm playing at LAN or competitions. i don't go around and saying they are noobs just because they lost to me. mentality of most gamers ...

if you win this team a but this team A wins team b but you lose to team B . what does that make you? =) a winner or a loser?

technically i hate talking about my gaming life. whatever man. it's like so lifeless and manfred seriously gotta learn how to keep things to himself and secrets and some things that we know it's private but he just loves to say it out to EVERYONE . not thinking of the consequences of the words coming outta his mouth.

comeon ppls. u know it's your life. u can be the best doctor in the world but you can't save yourself if you're sick. you wouldn't want a second best doctor to operate on you right? you get what i mean. just lay back and observes the ones around you. if you're in a love dilemma, you can always ask those around you but ultimately, you would be the one making the decision though you already know the answer. you just need affirmation. just need to make yourself feel better inside. and everything you say something like...

"haiyas i don't love him anymore.. i give up... i will forget him one"

u know you're lying to yourself and keepin it to yourself. you're never alone =) when you got me. lol. when you have some love problems, never attempt to solve it yourself because you would tend to be irrational in your thinking. you won't think or whatever is wrong but love makes you think it's right. this is all my point of view anyway.

you think you can handle it? =D

brownie typed this at 6:45 PM